Dear moms of Sandy Hook.

Dear Mom's of Sandy Hook,

I'm sending my best, love and support from Manhattan, however I do get to Newtown about every other week. Back on the 21st of December- the night of the Vigil, I first came to offer my support.

A few nights before, I watched a special about a similiar event in Dubane Scotland, and was comforted to learn that the way Dubane was able to move forward was that they had built a children's center. I run a 15 year old children's foundation and have the resources to immediately facilitate such a venture. Even before leaving Manhattan, I called my billionaire hedge fund buddy and asked for his support, as well as celebrities from Ricky Martin, Juliane Moore, to Bravos Andy Cohen. Again, I explained I was heading to Sandy Hook to build a children's center and within 2 hours of my arrival I had my permission. I was first asked if I wanted to break ground or rehab some of the empty buildings there at the vigil site. I then began to express the reason for my participation/ involvement and closed with I actually had no choice.

Violently, senselessly, and also prematurely my immediate family suffered the loss of two siblings. One as a result of childhood abuse, and the other a suicide very common with football players who've suffered head trauma due to concussions. We know loss, as Newtown knows loss. And although I never could compare the two, loss is loss and with that comes with a whole slew of reactionary effects. In addition, i lost a child hood hero who was also gunned down, and the person I was planning on spending my life with was on the plane that took down The World Trade Center. My family has not been the same and one could argue it destroyed our family. My oldest sister's marriage failed as a result, and its a wonder the remaining are alive this day as depression, acting out, and anger defined us for a time. I found solace in my dedication to others/humanity and used the skills learned to cope and facts I learned along the way to establish a national children's foundation- making my entire life that of service.

So, I told the town accessor who had become in charge of the donations and such that as much as I'd love to be the one identified with the center and acknowledged for my commitments, its not about me. And further more, I am still an outsider. I proposed a family step forward and I'm proud to say the Kowalski's are that family, and I will see to it that there every wish is granted. Envision a center where we honor those lost and help those left behind heal.

The proposed project is slated to become Chase's Place and will honor all those lost that fateful day and again help those left behind heal.

We have a billionaire hedge fund guy who's generously pledged a billion dollars to non profit/charities who's been very generous and good to us so far.. We have a family relationship with the new CEO of Citibank, so corporate sponsors wont be a problem. We have celebrity interest from a dozen plus A list personalities, and relationships with well known retailers that will afford our earning our own funding for operational costs, so you can be sure 96% of all monies raised will go directly to the center.

Essentially, what I'm able to do is expedite the process using first hand knowledge I've learned throughout the years. I'm here to help and with a 6 month anniversary right around the corner, I also wanted to ensure you we around the globe have not forgotten, and we are here for you whenever is needed.

To all the mom's thank you for bring the unsung hero, you are and always will be our MVP. For those of you who lost immediately, the absence will remain with a sense of emptiness. Only time will lessen this horrific traumatizing life disturbing anguish you feel. And the only way for evil to not win is to go forward finding and holding on to the fact that anything can be learned from and how you go forward will define you.

I was raped by a neighbor 37 years old to my 11. When I had courage to seek help, my priest later used information I shared personally and confidentially only to then become victimized/ assaulted again. I however will not allow for another to define me. My sister hadn't had the fight I have and succumbed.