Why we are here.
Kevin, can I have a moment of your time?
(re-writes to follow. don't criticize on errors as I cannot see half of them..)
I have a really crazy story for you- it involves Julianne Moore, Liv Tyler, Ricky Martin, Sarah Jessica Parker, and Brooke Shields to name a few. All have been asked personally to be involved in this monumental build of ours, and all have been incredibly supportive. We are the first responders in the aftermath of SandyHook, Newtown, CT. Throughout our 30 year tenure at child protection, were are building a Kid's Center in Newtown to honor the 26 people who for no apparent reason lost their lives. The only reason I can come up with is the amount of attention the media/public gives to crazy.
The above mentioned have all been very gracious and generous with their time. All except Brooke Shields. I had professionally asked, and presented it personally over a mutual social setting. With original suggested support, actual SandyHook memorial articles were delivered to her. In the box were two stuffed bears given to SandyHook to demonstrate love and care. They were then given to Brooke to in a sense 'foster' them until they made their final way to the Kids's Center upon completion. Liv Tyler complied, and so did Sarah Jessica Parker. Julianne Moore subtly asked that I would hold on to them for her as I believed SandyHook was too upsetting for her. It is for me.
We also reached out to Dr. Oz, Anderson Cooper, and several others. All accepted the memorial items, and all said they would return them to the Kids Center to be on permanent display. However, the waters became muddy when Brooke and I had run into each other. (3 x only to be exact.) I live on Waverly Place in NY at 6th Avenue. Just two blocks west is my pharmacy, my Starbucks that I sit and can do this work (most days..)and even the Housing Works Thrift Shop that I donate and support since its inception. Brooke Shields also lives on the street.
C'mon! If LeBron James lived on your street, how would you feel. Mad respect, right?!
Brooke is LeBron, Tiger- a few, few, few small , small group of individual people who have been like no other. They are worlds apart and as a result are respected.
At age 12 I was a broken little boy who escaped on a Blue Lagoon and played Risky Business. My make believe world kept me safe from what otherwise would have been harmful at the least. 4 out of 5 of us children were abused and as a result two have since passed. Kathy at age 33, and Danny at age 25. I held on because I had a fruitful imagination and in that imagination fan letters were sent and ultimately answered. We thought they were from Brooke until one night the phone rang and it was Mrs. Shields. Teri Shields. Mrs. Shields read my letters, consulted with several experts and then reached out to us. Now, I didn't go into exact details about my abuse, but it was enough to break Teri's heart as she had relayed to my parents. She informed my parents that she believed there were a lot of things going on with me that she was sure I didn't have the strength to share out loud. She was right. I was raped by a neighbor 38 years senior. I was only 12.
John. Age 12.
Brooke. Age 14.
I've shared all this with Brooke and it's even detailed on line several places. There is nothing hidden, as I am proud of the life of service I've lived having been strongly influenced by Brooke's mom. Without Teri, I too wouldn't have made it- I know that. Brooke somehow either doesn't appreciate the effort her mom had made and has been actually pretty rude. Mrs. Shields had sent to me a gift she had given out to guests of Brooke's birthday party,. It was a beautiful silver heart-shaped frame with a baby picture of Brooke. She couldn't be much more than 11 months old.. In any case, some 30+ years later, I felt it was wrong for an adult man to hold onto a heart framed picture of a girl I never knew. Mrs. Shields had also passed away two years prior to this and I thought Brooke's eldest daughter would appreciate such a generous /rare gift.. After all, Brooke is on record discussing how her children are active members of the neighborhood and that they all get along with everyone. This however is not true.. Brooke somehow believes I am a fraud. That my involvement with SandyHook is inaccurate and somehow she is resentful that I mention her being the inspiration to a national 501 c3 Non Profit that is now responsible for a 35Million dollar children's center.
After a couple rude run ins with Brooke in my neighborhood, I spoke to her husband Chris about the situation seeing that at the end of the day he is the man of the family, and should be respected with knowledge of all the goings on. We had met before so it wasn't inappropriate to say hello. They know me. We've discussed Brooke's mom and the involvement she interjected into our family and how deeply cherished she was as a result. In fact, Brooke was appreciated by all of us because her being and her mother making Brooke real to us, helped to save my life. I pay this life forward in service. My big sister died at age 33, and my baby brother died at age 25. Kathy was abused by a baby sitter and her life was a series of eating disorders. On April 19, 1997 Kathy's heart stopped. Danny was abused as well. A Boston Police officer sexually assaulted him after making a false arrest. The police officer soon shot himself after he was found unlawful. Danny also took his life. Kathy and Danny internalized their demons and in return it killed them/ it destroyed them. I, on the other hand was everything but. I did not internalize my pain- I expelled it and escaped to a blue lagoon and played some risky business. These child hood heroes saved this little boy and introduced a world to him that has led him to be doing some pretty remarkable things. Craig Zaden is an old boyfriend of mine and as he sets to do another Oscar show, he and his partner Neil inspired me to do a film as well about SandyHook. They generously are my mentors. Another buddy is in charge of ABC programming and we are shopping a daytime talk show about kids today. As you already know we are also building a 35 million dollar children's center and our mentor there is Bill Ackman. Bill Ackman is a hendge-fund billionaire and is highly regarded as Wall Street royalty.
What Brooke didn't realize, and again I don't fully understand- I'm very very transparent on line. My every move has already been reasoned out and any influence and inspiration has been credited. We've had dinner with Madonna, and lunch with the Gyllenhaal's. Our lives/ my life- your life for that matter doesn't make sense to those who do not live it. I could see where our worlds would be hard to believe to a regular person. But, Brooke should know better.
Brooke has signed things Brooke xx.... since forever. I ran into Brooke and her husband Chris after her broadway performance of my exCraig Zaden's Chicago. I first said hello to Brooke's husband Chris and he was excited to meet me after learning that it was I who was the "most thoughtful person' quote unquote Brooke Shields. Chris grabbed me and led me to Brooke. 'Brooke, this is the man who sent the Smythson on Bond Street gifts to bothe Brooke and her daughter Rowan. Brooke scolded me for spending too much money- close to a thousand dollars in one breath and then in a next joked with me informing me that she would not be sharing the gift I sent intended for Rowan. Brooke told me she was keeping them both and would be displaying them on her bureau.
Having met the Henche's previously and believed it to be a good time had by all/ The night ended with Chris and I joking around and playfully hitting each other in their arm, asking that he take good care of her for us. This looking back is significant because it's a male to male 'thing' - and maybe a little sexist too. When a female is known to be in good hands well, that's what we all want for those we care about. Even if what one feels is simple gratitude for whatever minor role it was that kept me alive after something that kills most!
I felt it was not at all inappropriate to say a hello the three times I had as I ran into Brooke on W10th St. Again, my first interaction was a nice gesture to give something to a child- a child who had just lost their grandmother at an age where she won't remember much, but can cherish what was left behind, That said, I had no right to keep it imagining the grief of a lost loved one. (I lost my dad the same month Mrs. Shields died and my dad's loss was a great great tragedy despite his cruelness.
To be given a gift that actually belonged to one's grandmother.... for it then to be called scaring her children. There was no discussion of the children, just a lot of yelling and threatening from the Shield's camp. A bully is a person who uses their sense of power and influence to break harm. destroy someone viewed as weaker. I'm a dude, but not a celebrity. I would've had I continued- the last audition was for Tom Cruise's 'A Few Good Men.' But, I could never live in the public eye, under constant scrutiny and the weirdos. The weirdos did it for me. The stalking laws were essentially put in effect in '89. It was especially alarming to me at the time because the incident that led to the new laws was the result of a horrific killing across the street from me on Flores Ave in Los Angeles just two days after my arrival.
To say stalking is an issue. It is- I've seen the blood on the ground that takes weeks to even begin to disappear, and never really does.
I park a 65,000$ Audi in NY on the street. I do this because I do not trust the garages. On w10th Street there are 4 spots that are supposed to be policed for street cleaning. They are not. They are at the end of a street that is dedicated to police vehicles- all but four spots. So, these unimportant and out of way spots are over-looked. I parked in one of the 4 spots which just so happens to be in front of Brooke's West Village Brownstone. Of course, if seen on a regular basis... I always make myself known because there are ACTUALLY a lot of REAL stalkers that actually stalk and invoke actual fear... My car is out front of Brooke's home and after running into her, I simply commented that I hoped she didn't mind and if she would like the spot for herself it would be fine. I was overly kind to over compensate for her over- rudeness in the neighborhood. All I had done was had sent via messenger Sandy Hook correspondence, and a card that actually honored the difficulty celebrities have being in public. Brooke did a tv show about this Super Woman and the story of this particular episode was Brooke's character actually appreciating her public for having made her in the first place. I of course felt bad for Brooke- and all celebrities for that matter who have to deal with people who live through other people. These people for whatever the reason are inadequate and they look elsewhere for completion vicariously through their heroes of film and television. They grow into adults sad and incomplete. These are star fuckers... they are the stalkers who sadly are mentally unstable who's realities are far from the actual truths. This is a mental illness like an alzeihmers that steals peoples memories... I do not escape on any blue lagoon. I am an adult. I do play a lot of risky business, but c'mon... my Thomas. Tom Cruse. I said my Thomas because its just as fecicious as MY BROOKIE on my Facebook. What Yankee fan doesn't consider the Yankees as their team? What football fan doesn't place an enamored ownership of their quarterback?? My car was parked out in front of Brooke's house because I couldn't find another. it was the only spot when I parked, and when I went back to move it to another at 4am- it was still unfruitful. Brooke and I just had a nice chat on video and again, I thought she was kind. The rudeness I passed off as the horrors of celebrity., Brooke signed things Brooke xx like I said for always. But, I'm realizing that too may have been Mrs. Teri Shields. I of course would remind her to add the xx after her several meet and greets. So, on my car's windshield I wrote Brooke Shields as she had just recently signed to a book that she had actually given me. On her twitter/ whosay social media accounts when sends notices to her followers. On this one day, I was invited to an AOL online interview show, and a Barnes and Noble store meet and greet. She invited me, and gave me 2 books. If I was a nuisance or an actual bother, logically I should've been blocked and disinvited. Neither of which I was. Can I just say, who needs to know that Superman took Brooke's virginity?? She gave me two copies of her book, and I even bought an i-tunes copy to support her sales. (thinking/knowing they would not be good... they were not.) I wrote Brooke on my car full expecting to find two x's. Instead, I came to find my car scratched by being violently wiped clear of something I wrote. I then took to social media and asked that Brook's faggy henchman to NOT touch my car. I found it offensive and the damage vandalism. Brooke then went across the street and filked a complaint.
The police then took it to the DA, where they opened an investigation. I was told to not walk on a street I'd been walking on for 18 years- every day. I refused because I did nothing wrong. I may have used a word that may be offensive, but I disagree. The assistant of Brooke's is this really nasty man. He terrorizes and oversteps. It's a picture of Brooke in a silver frame that was commissioned by Brooke's mom Teri as birthday gifts for party attendees. C'mon!! Where is the humanity.
After the complaint was made, and the DA began their investigation, they were only fueled by four charges. The charges stated that I walked down 10th Street and paused. The other states that Chris Henche warned me about his kids starting that they were afraid. The other was Brooke's bodyguard who said the same thing. He did not. The conversation was about my giving a picture to Brooke that had once belonged to her mother. There is no room for stating fearful kids in that. The wording and such is a clear plagiarized effort form Brooke's actual stalker in 2012. That I did not even know. I didn't know Brooke was terrorized nor any other details. Not the sign of a stalker. I can also prove Brooke's husband Chris' deposition was also a lie. And I can do it very easily. This is why I was arrested and spent 12 days in Manhattan Detention center with 25 to lifers, placed in shackles and shown in shackles in public at a hospital, I was sexually violated, and aside from that had a blast. It's not any part of my reality and therefore it was entertaining. Hell, I even had the 2nd best seat in the house- next in line to Styles who ran the entire floor. Brooke lied because she believed I was somehow the actual stalker who actually terrorized her. She did not bother to look clearly nor put any effort in finding the truth because its' too easily found online. Brooke was vindictive and spiteful and was set out to teach me a lesson and erase me from my neighborhood. Let's get this straight- what Brooke has inspired in my life could never be repaid. All she would have to do is say I bothered her and I'd have moved cross country to LA. I wouldn't have taken it personally because I actually understand celebrity all too well and how far from reality 'they' actually are. How their worries are not about climate change or hunger, but about their boobs and how they have to be bigger to be able to play Morticia in The Adams' Family.
Through Brooke lying to have me removed from her street... I lost a 400,000 dollar job w/TD Bank. The police came to my apartment and horrified the co-op and scared the other tenants.. I then lost a 6million dollar co-op. I was jailed and in shackles for 12 days like a common animal, and I have been publicly ruined as far as my non-profit children's work is concerned. Stalkers are as well received as pedophiles and rapists. And now, I'm receiving death threats and told to kill myself being cyber bullied. I through my hands up and said I give up, that I was leaving, I was done. I left, and my mother thought i meant suicide. After all we had already lost two siblings... my mom was so overwrought with the thought of me in shackles and my threatening to 'leave' that she overdosed June 8.
All because Brooke lied. Kevin, I apologize for all this nonsense- but you are you. You are brilliant and you are, again you. Can you find a light for this? A 35 million dollar kids center is at steak. The ending School violence we are committed to is also at risk. We are unselfishly driven- for 20 years or so..... this we need for us, if you so choose.
Thank you, John